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This is hard

Wed, 05/09/2012 - 22:11 — Lynann

Joining this site was difficult even though I knew there were people here like me.

Despite the support I received...I had trouble posting again. I wanted to...but I couldn't. Then my aunt, the woman who changed my life died on 1 May 2012. I know she loved me and wanted me to recover and live a good life.

I am trying.This is so hard...but you all know that.

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Thu, 05/10/2012 - 04:47 — Sue

I can't even put into words how sorry I am that you lost your aunt. My heart goes out to you,it really does. I see things this way,even though she isn't here ,she is. She lives inside of you,always!!! She is watching,she is still watching and supporting you. She will never really leave you alone,so keep fighting to get better. She WILL see the days when you do feel better. I get not wanting to post here,I have been in that place for several weeks now,you just do what you need to do. As always,you do know that your not alone here. Please take care of yourself!!!!!

Mon, 05/14/2012 - 19:29 — gmasheart

Dear Lynann,

So sorry to hear about the passing of your aunt. Thank God you had someone that you could share things with. When I was sexually abused over 60 years ago no one wanted to hear about it or talk about it.  It was so very difficult to try and approach anyone about what was happening to me.  I was not abused by my own family but by friends of our family(I use the word friend very loosely). I was brainwashed into feeling that no one would believe me and when the second person came along how would anyone believe that it happened twice.   When I finally had the courage to tell someone I was in my late 30s and felt that my husband would understand and be there for me.  How very wrong I was.  I once again thought that it would be better to just keep it inside of me.  Now that people are talking about it in the open I fee that the only way I can get peace is to try and make sure it doesn't happen to other children.  I have helped by instructing parents, grandparents, and other family members what signs to look for and how to talk about it to those they suspect might be abused.  I am finally able to talk about my own situation but I still am very careful with who I share it with.  I am in my 60s now and have moved back to my home state where the abuse took place.  I have a friend that has been in my life for all those years and have finally told her that I was sexually abused but have yet told her the total story.  One day I will let her know what happened but for know it is nice to know that she is there for me without judgeing me.

God's Blessings to you.  Peggy

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Stacey is free. In January 2009, Missouri Governor Matt Blunt commuted her sentence of life without parole. She is currently speaking out about sexual abuse and sharing her message of love, healing and forgiveness.