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The Ghost of Christmas Past

Christmas is a hard time of year. When we were kids we looked forward to it - no matter what else was happening in our lives. I loved Christmas. It was the one time of the year when I knew my family would be happy and we would all get along. Cookies, carols, and presents meant my family was jovial. We would visit would other family members - you just never knew who would turn up. Christmas for me was a magical time and even when I stopped believing in the bearded one who came down the chimney, I still believed there was something special about Christmas.

Reunited & It Feels So Good

Okay forgive me for borrowing the lyrics to a song from Peaches and Herb, but in this case the lyrics truly fit. While I was incarcerated I trained dogs for CHAMP, Inc. (Canine Helpers Allow More Possibilities).  Of course I loved each one of the dogs that passed through my life, a few of them are in my book, Redemption - or the UK version - I Shot Daddy. One dog I did not mention was Henry. 

Truly on my own

It has been a minute since I have posted because a lot of changes have been taking place my way, good ones, but changes still take a toll.  In April of this year I moved out on my own for the first time. I had a roommate for the first two months, which was great. I needed that bit of hand holding, having someone to turn to so I could make certain everything was okay.

Loving Who I Am

I never really felt worthy of love. I always felt if my parents couldn't love me, then who could? Hard question and it took me over a decade to discover the answer. Drum roll please, the answer is me. I had to learn to love myself before anyone else could even attempt to love me, before I could try to love another person. If I didn't see myself as worthy of love, then I never would be.

Breaking Negative Patterns

This blog is actually also a reply to a user's post. I thought it was a perfect topic to deal with this week since we all have feelings of anger that threaten to overwhelm us at times.

I cannot begin to tell you how angry I was when I was a teenager, anger at God, anger at my parents, anger at myself, anger. I couldn't see straight anymore because I was too clouded.

Being True to You

People always ask me how I can forgive people in my past who have hurt me.  This is a tough question because there is no right answer for every single person, it is not a one size fits all solution.  For me, I look to see if the other person really wants to be a part of my life because they want a relationship with me or because "it is the right thing to do".  If they truly want a relationship with me, then it means both parties are willing to work toward a common goal.  If it is "the right thing to do", then it really isn't about me, it is about them trying to look good for others and I ha

What Do You Stand For?

When we first begin to confront our pasts, the resolve and strength we once found can become quite shaky.  Reality is stark and strong.  Every day we are confronted with issue we had no idea existed.  Giving up, giving in to denial can be easy.  Some days we just want it to all go away.  Truth is, it will never just go away.  We will face our past every single day.

The New Addition

It is my great pleasure to introduce my new niece, Ashlyn Josephine, into the world.  She arrived Wednesday morning as scheduled.

I wanted her to be named Macy, but since I did not carry her for 9 months my sister said I didn't really get to choose.  I thought about throwing a fit and holding my breath until she changed her mind but quickly realized that it would never work and I would just pass out.

Understanding Ourselves

Why do I behave a certain way? Why am I thinking like this? Why do I feel this way?  These are the questions that help us to understand ourselves. 

Self-reflection can be many things, for me it is hard, challenging, and freeing at the same time.  Some of the toughest work has been the most liberating.  Amazing how hard times can bring about personal freedom.

Welcoming a New Addition

On a very personal note, it gives me great pleasure to announce that a new addition is expected into my family this week.  My sister is about to give birth to a baby girl this Wednesday.  I know the date because the birth will be by C-section.  My first niece was born through emergency C-section and now the second must be also be delivered the same way, but at least this one is planned.


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About Stacey Lannert

Stacey is free. In January 2009, Missouri Governor Matt Blunt commuted her sentence of life without parole. She is currently speaking out about sexual abuse and sharing her message of love, healing and forgiveness.

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